Well as you know it's Monday. I went all of last week w/ out missing any school! Yay! It's of course going to be harder this week... Ah I'll write more crap after school...

After school: I realized today, that I have more family than my know of. I was talking to TaSha and she began saying something about a woman named Selena. I asked TaSha who Selena is, turns out to be one of TaSha's many siblings. So Selena would be my second cousin, or second stepcousin. If that makes sense.

I've known TaSha all of my life, and I have only met 4 of her siblings. Only! She has like twelve or something (only two have the same mother as her). I have a huge ass family! That's a bad thing, because I dislike or hate 98% of my family. The ones I do like I can't stand. But that's just me, because I'm a bitch and a terrible person in general.

Soy un Perdedor

AM

I'm a failure. Enough on that subject, I don't want to make you ... I don't feel like finishing that sentence. By the way, excuse any poor translation in this entry...

Does anyone ever notice this? When a man disguises himself as a woman in a movie, it's usually a comedy. Then when a woman disguises herself a a man, she usually ends up being raped and/or killed. Just a thought. I do love/like a lot of these movies. Yesterday I saw Tootsie! I loved it. I like that they went from Michael w/ his agent, then straight to him walking down the street as Dorothy. Instead of showing the process of "becoming a woman" in between, they showed it a little later. I love Dustin Hoffman.

Some Unconsious Mutterings:

Rising:: Sun

Third:: Rock from the Sum

Disruptive:: child

Surround:: sound

Distant:: cousin

Suction:: cup

Fried:: green tomatos

Nuggets:: gold nuggets

San Antonio:: Texas

 

Soy un perdedor,

Yo soy un fracaso,

Así que por qué hace no usted me mata

Terrible Easter. My Grama always complains about things, what made us think she wouldn't this time? Ah don't feel like talking about that. Something happy: Ooh Angel food cake. So light, so fluffy, so weeee. That was wierd.

Then I spent the night over at my sisters. I lurve it there, so peaceful. Other than a bunch of brats outside. Since she's the manager, she has the keys to an empty suite on the top floor. She goes up there to make check-ups and stuff or something. And I go w/ her. There's a huge patio! From up there, Windsor actually looks pretty. Not to mention it's by the river. So when it gets dark, you can see the bridge clearly, and it's so perty...

Ah, I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. I wanna stay home and whine about how much school I'm missing. Too bad I wasn't homeschooled. Bleh, then again, I wouldn't wanna be home...

AM

I keep missing school. I catch up really easily and finsih stuff on time, but I'm so cynical and whiny so: I'm gonna fail. Ah!

Anyway, go to madeyoulook.ca. Cute jewellry. In Toronto though.

Reading Working Wonders by Jenny Colgan. I was hooked by the end of the first page. I love the Kevin Spacey reference.

Ah I got nothing to say. I either wrote it in an offline journal, or typed it in an online journal. Blab. My sister came over today, for 5 minutes. *Sad smile*. No one wants to spend time w/ me. Just kidding. Well... I don't even know if I want to be around people or not. I hope tomorrow isn't Dress Down Day. If so I can wear my non-uniform sweater. I hate not knowing things. I mean I'm not nosey, I just hate not knowing things that concern me.

I am not sure if Lionel Davis has came yet. I hope not, I didn't want to miss it. Ah phones ringing. Who the hell is Kimberly Welch? Damned people. I have to phone TaSha. I don't want to. I hate her. It's sad, because in another entry I wrote I loved her and she was the most sweetest person I know. She's not. She's two-faced.

Soy un Perdedor,

AM

I had to go to guidance today, and well that's okay. But I know this thing was set up by my mother! I walk in, and she asks me stuff about how I'm feeling, etc. Can't they get it? I am not interested in talking to a couselor. There are students that need it MUCH more that me.

Why do people automatically assume, that I'm not happy because I'm not laughing or smiling all the time? My smile will not make the blind see, and my laughter will not make the deaf hear. Maybe these people who keep asking me that, are just not funny.

I don't see why I can't just not smile/laugh. It's doesn't mean I'm not amused. And on top of that, the damned lady spelled my name wrong. The last name, wasn't even close. Plarte? What the hell. I've been in that damned office tons of time, and she doesn't even remember my last name. Which it probably one of the easiet. Plarte?

I know your thinking "Stop whining, they just care you lucky bitch". Well why didn't they care when I was in Grade seven and eight on the verge of something I wont say because I'm too ashamed of it. I know why, she was getting drunk. Now that she's got diabetes and a therapist, she's all of the sudden an expert. Ironically, I'm actually rather happy now. Not the happiest person, but fairly content... Plus, this is my blog journal thing, I can whine all I want.

Busy week this school week is. Tomorrow I have a presentation, and TaSha will finally be at school. Wednesday is the Literacy Test. Thursday is dress-down day. Weee, ah well it's not that important. Then Friday I have a history test. Which is surprisingly my best class this year.

Ooh, new Nirvana icon. I forgot where I got it from, and am not taking credit for it. Same thing for my butterfly, and another rose icon I uploaded.

Soy un perdedor,

AM

Ooh, I've been looking at old journal entries I made while I was younger. Very strange and pathetic. I guess not much has changed.

Yesterday I spent three hours just walking around w/ TaSha. It was fun, even if I can't stand her all that much. When I got home I almost passed out. She also broke a promise, but oh well.

I love Antiques Roadshow!

I have some Moby song stuck into my head. I like some of his music, but not this one...

I'm reading one of my fave. online writers fanfictions. It the first of her "Black Sun" series. It's very good, I'm on the third chap (so hard to read on the screen and stay focused because of my damned music...). Anyway, I have a feeling that Jehu is Forest... It would make sence. He was stolen and they took his memories, etc... Oh well...

Didn't go to school today. Or Friday. Definately tomorrow... My mom is insane. Go to http://www.theprettyflower.com/ for her stories.

 

Lyrics from "3 Libras"

threw you the obvious and you flew with it on your back, a name in your recollection, thrown down among a million same.

difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed and passed over when i've looked right through to see you naked and oblivious and you don't see me.

but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a fallen angel, the eyes of a tragedy.

here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded. but i see through it all and see you.

so i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy. oh well. apparently nothing. you don't see me. you don't see me at all.

Soy un Perdedor

Hugs+Puppies AM

Better off:: dead
Girls:: gone wild
Uniform:: military
Classified:: top secret
Hard:: copy
Kitty:: Goodbye and hello kitty
Team:: blue (I dunno)
Massive:: erection!
Depressed:: mother
Award:: show

A little update: I have to go back to school tomorrow
- Talked to some of my online buddies after months of... well not. I missed them.
- Finished a short story, began another novel length one.

Soy un perdedor,
Hugs+Puppies
AM

Day of judgement, god is calling on their knees, the war pigs crawling
Begging mercy for their sins
Satan, laughing, spreads his wings
Oh Lord yeah!

I decided to post here, since the last time was over a month ago. Here're a bunch of random thoughts I wrote yesterday:

- This pen is fluffy & has leopard print
- We are going to watch Meet Me in St. Louis which I love. After Steve watches the news.
- There was a Judy Garland biopic, and the actress playing Judy had a terrible wig.
- It's my gramas b-day
- It's about 5:53pm
- I'm only writing these, because I want a reason to use this sexy pen.
- Fluffy cheesedoodles
- Queenie has bird seed on her nose
- Queenie wants to eat my pen
- I have to go to school next week *insert sad puppy face here*
- I like crosses, but I'm not religious.
- Jesus wasn't even the only person to be crucified, just the most popular. Sorry if that offends the people who are not even reading this, because no one does.
- 2 actors (that I know of), from King Arthur, were on the HBO show Rome.
- They still aren't starting the movie.
- Queenie just sighed, such a cute cheesedoodle!
- Good morning starshine!
- I have a pretty glass beer (ick) mug, w/ a pretty ship on it.
- It has icky pepsi in it.
- Dammit! Start the damn movie!
- Yum. Gum.
- On acorn candle box: "Caution: ... ... Keep wick centered."
- Yay, magnetic checkers! Two pieces are missing...
- I do not like sitting in this chair.
- I will now end this, since I have finished the page.

- Random thoughts for now:
- We didn't even watch the movie
- *puts on red lipstick and starts singing "Science Fiction Double Feature"*

Soy un Perdedor,
AM